Lockyer says ‘I believed I used to be dying’ after collapse ‘despatched him to nothingness’
Tom Lockyer admits that he thought he may have been dying when he collapsed on the pitch.
Luton captain Lockyer suffered a cardiac arrest throughout his aspect’s Premier League journey to Bournemouth in December, which was subsequently deserted with all in attendance critically involved for his well being.
Over latest weeks, he has been attempting to return to normality and is again at Kenilworth Road on Sunday for the conflict with Manchester United. Speaking on Sky Sports, has opened up on the harrowing expertise, admitting he thought that his days have been numbered.
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Lockyer mentioned: “It’s not something that happens everyday, the eyes of the world were on us. It was nice to come out and say ‘I’m doing well’, I think everyone deserves to know that and see me doing really well. I can’t lie, it’s been a tough few months but I am well.”
“I want I may inform you to be sincere as a result of since, I’ve been wanting again and pondering ‘could it have been this, could it have been that’ but it surely was only a regular day and that’s in all probability what’s most worrying about it. I felt fully wonderful, I’ve been in search of solutions however so far as I used to be conscious it was a standard day on the workplace. It was all going effectively till what occurred.
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“I used to be working as much as the half-way line and felt actually light-headed and I bear in mind pondering ‘I’ll be OK in a second’, however finally I wasn’t and I wakened and the paramedics and everybody was in every single place.
“It was well documented that it happened in May, but I knew this was different. Last time I almost woke up from a dream, this time it was nothingness. I could see straight away that the paramedics, physios, club doctors, there was a bit more panic around and I was a bit disorientated.
“I couldn’t communicate, I couldn’t transfer and I used to be simply attempting to absorb and work out what was occurring, whereas that was happening, I bear in mind pondering ‘I could be dying’.
“That’s a surreal thought to have and not be able to move and respond, and you can see the panic and feel the drip being put into my arm. It was all quite a hard mix of emotions, eventually I came around and was able to speak and respond. Once I came round and felt OK, it was almost a relief – ‘I’m alive’.
“I’m simply lucky it occurred the place it occurred. I really feel like everybody watching it and my household had it worse than me.”
This wasn’t the primary time Lockyer had gone down off the ball, as he additionally collapsed throughout Luton’s play-off closing success towards Coventry at Wembley the season prior.
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He added: “So after what happened in May, I have a device fitted that records my heart…and it was two minutes forty I was out for and I needed a defib to shock me back. A massive thank you to the paramedics, club doctors, everyone involved that day because without them I wouldn’t be standing here.”
“My old man was there and my girlfriend – who was seven months pregnant at the time, instantly that’s where my thoughts go. Like I said, as soon as I woke up and got my bearings, I was OK, I felt fine and didn’t have any soreness.
“I was fine, but for them having to watch it – my mom was at home listening on the radio with my brother. After Bournemouth scored, she was in a fit and went to make a cup of tea, when she came back my brother had turned the radio off.
“She was like ‘what are you doing?’ and he said ‘Tom’s gone down off the ball again’. It’s things like this that are the bigger picture and that people don’t see and that side of it is hardest to deal with.”
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Lockyer was fast to reward the membership and fellow gamers who’ve helped him since his collapse and has admitted that taking to the pitch once more is not his first precedence.
Lockyer exclaimed: “I’ve spoken to Christian [Eriksen], Daley Blind and Charlie Wyke who have all had similar heart conditions. And the one thing that was common from them all was ‘take your time to process what has happened’.
“And in some methods I don’t assume I’ve processed it, perhaps as a result of as athletes we’re in a position to cope with issues in another way and might compartmentalise. Maybe it’ll come again and chew me on the bum, however I’ve probably not had any feelings since, I do know I actually died however I’ve been fairly numb about it. But like I mentioned, my girlfriend is pregnant, due quickly, that’s my precedence.”
“Playing again is out of my hands in a way. That will be dictated by medical staff and specialists, buit what I would say is that if there is a chance – obviously I won’t do anything against specialist recommendations – then I would love to. Obviously it’s far too early to say at this time, there’s a lot more tests that need to happen. But I wouldn’t write it off at the minute, but my priorities are with the baby.”
