Gemma Collins reveals she needed to terminate a being pregnant

Gemma Collins broke down in tears as she told of her ‘heartbreak’ at being advised to terminate a pregnancy during a candid interview on the new Everything I Know About Me podcast.

The former TOWIE star, 43, became emotional as she recalled how she was advised by medical professionals to end her pregnancy.

In a trailer for the podcast interview, which will be released on May 9, Gemma said: ‘They advised me you need to have a termination. I remember that being really stressful. That hurt me.’

Talk also turned to her past relationships, with the reality star admitting: ‘I was really heartbroken because I was pregnant and he was having an affair.’ 

It is not clear if this is the pregnancy she was advised to terminate by healthcare professionals. 

The trailer also touched on lighter topics discussed during the wide-ranging interview including some of cosmetic procedures Gemma has had.

She said: ‘I have had an operation years ago, I have had a designer vagina,’ before jokingly adding: ‘But I don’t have camel toe!’

Gemma has been open about her fertility struggles and has previously suffered three miscarriages. 

She suffered her first heartbreaking loss in 2012, finding the strength to speak out about it publicly eight years later in 2020. 

The reality star did not realise she was pregnant at the time, said that the baby ‘died in front of her’ after giving birth at home on her landing.

Speaking on her own podcast, Gemma said: ‘I’ve had some shocking things happen to me, I’m not sure I’ve spoken about this before.

‘But I actually gave birth to a child, sadly, and basically the child was four months old, basically I had a miscarriage but obviously the baby was formed and it died in front of me.’

‘I had to go to the hospital and my mum was there. I can remember my mum being really upset, I was in shock, I was upset.

‘That was really a shocking moment for me. But this is what I’m saying, I can talk about it now. Things sometimes are not meant to be.

‘I’ll never forget it, it was a very traumatising experience because I didn’t know I was pregnant and literally I remember waking up with severe pains and my mum said to me, ‘Gemma you need to go to the toilet,’ and I was like, ‘Honey, this is not…’

‘I mean obviously I couldn’t describe… Look I try and find the bit of entertainment in this bad situation because I think that’s probably a coping mechanism of mine, I try to laugh or see a brighter side in things even though it was really traumatic.

‘But I can remember just being in utter shock. I’ve been through a lot so I feel in life, nothing shocks me.

‘So anything you could tell me now wouldn’t shock me because I’ve been through a lot and dealt with a lot but I’m grateful for those experiences because I can sit here today and relay them to other people.’

Gemma suffered her second pregnancy loss in 2020 during the Covid pandemic. 

She spoke about the upsetting incident on an episode of Loose Women, explaining: ‘It was really difficult for me in isolation because, as you know, with my condition of PCOS, it’s not easy to fall pregnant and I did suffer a miscarriage which was really sad during the lockdown period.’

She added: ‘I have suffered with it for the last 10 years. I started to gain weight when I was 28, my periods were all over the place. I’ve suffered miscarriages.

‘I did go through a very sad miscarriage in lockdown. Due to PCOS I just thought that I was having an unusually heavy period. I actually left it 10 days.’  

‘I can remember thinking the month before, “Ooh, my boobs seem really perky!” It’s been no secret recently that I’ve found my boobs so heavy in my life, I’m turning 40 this year, I will not be taking them into the next decade with me.’

‘So, I thought, “Oh, maybe I won’t have the operation, I’ve been working out, maybe they’re lifting up a bit.” Then 3 or 4 days into a heavy period really realising it’s not like a usual period… but thinking there’s been a lot going on lately, maybe my body’s been a bit stressed.’

She explained it was her sister-in-law who advised her to seek medical attention, continuing: ‘It went on for 10 days between 9am and midday, I was getting through 10 super sanity towels. Then it was my sister-in-law, not to be graphic, but I had to show her.’

‘I said, “I don’t think this is normal”. I rang my doctor and he said, “You need to go straight to the hospital”. It was very sad. But it does make me realise that, potentially there is hope there for me for the future.’

Tragically, just a few months later, Gemma suffered a third devastating miscarriage in July 2020 after falling pregnant with her ex-boyfriend James Argent’s baby. 

The TOWIE star spoke out about her heartbreaking loss after Meghan Markle announced she had lost her second child with Prince Harry. 

Speaking at the time, she said: ‘I’ve not talked about this before, but it was my third, each one a devastating loss on my longed-for journey to motherhood.

‘I’ve been trying to have a baby for nearly a decade now, only to have my hopes dashed time and again by first one miscarriage, then another.’

In a poignant essay, Gemma detailed the beginning of her miscarriage and said she had no idea she was pregnant with on-off boyfriend Arg’s baby, before she started experiencing sharp cramps one morning.

The reality star said she had dismissed the pains as a heavy period, and tried to push on through the excruciating pain, before her sister forced her to visit her doctor.

After being sent to hospital, Gemma was given the tragic news that she had suffered a miscarriage. 

She continued: ‘In a single instant, I learned that I’d been carrying a baby and lost it, meaning that once again I found my longstanding dreams of motherhood shattered into pieces.’

However, the star has refused to give up her dream of motherhood and said in November last year she was starting a new fertility journey.

Speaking exclusively to MailOnline about her family plans, she revealed she was pleased to hear that Tana Ramsay had welcomed her sixth child at the age of 49, because it gave her hope that she too can conceive in her 40s. 

‘The Tana Ramsay news was the greatest thing to wake up to. Incredible’, Gemma mused.   

‘It really made me think positively about my future and kind of took the pressure off. I don’t think anyone knew she was pregnant, so it was a lovely surprise, but I got butterflies in my stomach when I saw it.’

Gemma continued: ‘This is amazing news for me. I’m starting my fertility journey within the next couple of weeks. 

‘I’m going to a clinic so watch these cards and get ready for me, honey.’

Revealing she feels positive about her chances, Gemma continued: ‘I’ll be standing on them steps announcing the child to the world. London will go to a standstill. The great Queen will come and greet the child!’

Gemma revealed earlier this year she was praying for a baby with her fiancé Rami Hawash. She is stepmother to his son Tristan, five. 

During a spiritual trip to Tel Aviv in January, Gemma and her fiancé visited Bethlehem, with the star later confessing: ‘I did pray when I was there, I said ”please God, please give me a baby this year” and you know please God it happens.’ 

She previously detailed her battle with polycystic ovary syndrome battle (PCOS) which can affect fertility. 

Polycystic ovary syndrome is a hormonal disorder causing enlarged ovaries with small cysts on the outer edges. Symptoms include menstrual irregularity, excess hair growth, acne, and obesity.

For confidential support please contact the Miscarriage Association on 01924 200799 or email [email protected] 

Listen to Gemma Collins on the Mail’s Everything I Know About Me podcast on Spotify or Apple Podcasts. New episodes released every Thursday, with the first two of Gemma’s episodes launching on May 9.