Explosive memoir by Diddy’s ex makes stunning intercourse and violence claims

A new book accuses Sean ‘Diddy‘ Combs of assaulting his late girlfriend, taping himself having sex with a male teenage popstar, and sex parties with an Oscar winner and his wife.

The 60-page book, Kim’s Lost Words, claims to be a collection of the diaries of Kim Porter, the mother of three of his children who died of pneumonia in 2018, leaked by her friends.

It describes Combs’s colorful love life from the 1990s through Porter’s final year, including alleged philandering with both male and female top musicians and rappers, and debauched orgies at his home, in which Porter took part.

The book was published on September 6, just days before the rapper and Bad Boy Records founder was indicted for racketeering and sex trafficking by federal prosecutors in New York.

A book claiming to be the collected diaries of Diddy’s late ex Kim Porter, the mother of three of his children who died of pneumonia in 2018, has been published. Porter was with the rapper at his White Party in 2007 

The book describes debauched orgies at Diddy’s home, in which Porter admits she took part

The short memoir has disturbing alleged accounts of Diddy slapping Porter after losing his temper, and even making death threats to her.

In the book, Porter recounts discovering and making copies of tapes Diddy made of himself having sex with ‘young boys’ he was managing, including an alleged tape involving an 18-year-old popstar who went on to be a household name.

The final entry of the memoir has Porter falling fatefully ill, dramatically texting her friends ‘he got me’, and then calling 911.

The book’s Los Angeles-based publisher, producer Chris Todd, claims Porter shared a thumb drive of her writing with close friends which he obtained and lightly edited into a book under the pseudonym Jamal T Millwood.

The book is marked as being printed in Las Vegas on September 7, 2024. 

Todd has not offered any documentary evidence to prove its authenticity – but put hard copies up for sale on Amazon.

‘I was lucky enough to meet someone that purported to have Kim Porter’s flash drive,’ he told DailyMail.com.

Combs is accused of sex trafficking, forced labor, interstate transportation for purposes of prostitution, drug offenses, kidnapping, arson, bribery and obstruction of justice

‘I know the celebrity source pretty well. I know how close they were to Kim and Diddy, and all the people in the hip hop community.

‘This was supposedly for Kim Porter from the grave, to come forward and tell her story.’

Porter applied make-up to try to hide the injuries Diddy inflicted on her, but couldn’t hide the hideously swollen lips

Todd said he did not originally want to put his name on the book for security reasons.

‘This is a dangerous situation, and I didn’t want to claim ownership of Kim’s words. But now I’m willing to come forward because of the recent arrest of Sean Combs.

‘Now the federal government has finally acted, I feel safer to come forward.’

Details of some of the scandals alleged in the book have already been reported. Diddy allegedly took out a gun and started shooting at a nightclub in 1999, then made a rapper on his label, Shyne, take the fall for him.

Combs and then-girlfriend Jennifer Lopez were arrested over the incident, but only Shyne was charged – though rumors of Combs’s responsibility have swirled ever since.

Other incidents have been flat-out denied by the alleged participants, including star-studded orgies.

‘He hosted parties that were just a fancy name of orgies, and everyone wanted in,’ the Porter memoir claimed.

‘We not only had threesomes, but we also swapped partners. Our sex life was crazy, but I got to do things with Sean I would never have been able to do with a straight man.

She said she was sleeping with a well-known married woman: ‘I woke up and left the bedroom where I was,… and Sean happened to be coming out of the bedroom’ with a chart-topping rapper – and the woman’s husband.’ 

Combs and then-girlfriend Jennifer Lopez were arrested in 1999 over a nightclub shooting incident. The book details how Combs made rapper Shyne take the blame for the incident

‘I was grateful I wasn’t asked to join in that room,’ Porter allegedly wrote, saying she ‘didn’t really like’ the rapper.

Porter allegedly wrote that she and Diddy had an ‘open relationship’ and that she regularly slept with legendary late rapper Tupac Shakur.

The Porter memoir claimed Combs first hit her after she refused to use a strap-on on him.

‘I just can’t stop thinking about that night. It was amazing. Can you screw me one more time. Please?!’ Diddy said according to the book.

‘I became infuriated,’ the book said, adding that Porter told Diddy to instead have sex with a male music executive she believed he was having an affair with. 

‘Then Sean hit me. This was the first time, but he slapped me hard. Before I could form words, he began to beg, “I’m… I’m sorry.”

‘Holding my cheek where he hit me, I turned and ran off. That should have been it. But I guess I am a glutton for punishment.’

The book described another alleged incident at Porter’s apartment.

‘He fiercely slammed me to the ground. Then he pulled out a .22 [handgun] and sat it on the end table,’ the memoir claimed.

‘He knelt on one knee, and got right in my face to say, “You’re mine. You don’t have a choice in that now. I can’t live without you”.

‘He’s a terrifying monster.’

The Porter memoir claimed Combs first hit her after she refused to use a strap-on on to have sex with him

Combs, Porter, and family at the unveiling of his star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame in Los Angeles on May 2, 2008

Porter allegedly wrote that she discovered video tapes of Sean’s sexual encounters in his bedroom ‘vault’, and made copies of them as protection for herself, as part of her plan to leave him.

The publisher of the 60-page book, Kim’s Lost Words  claims Porter shared a thumb drive of her writing with close friends 

But the memoir said that when she watched back the tapes, she was shocked.

‘Some of the tapes had things I would have never expected, the gay parties are one thing, but the young boys, like [two hip hop stars formerly managed by Diddy] and [the then-18-year-old popstar]?! I would have never known.’

The book’s publisher claimed the friends of Porter and Diddy who gave him the memoir, also had copies of the music mogul’s alleged sex tapes.

He claimed a shady interlocutor had even been trying to sell them to Hollywood documentary producers.

‘I was given the memoir, 60 pages. I was also given a photo, and told if I wanted access to the Diddy sex tapes, I could have that also,’ he said.

‘I know for a fact the [sex tape of Diddy with the teenage pop star] has been shopped to Hollywood studios by other parties.’

Todd also shared a photo of Porter, which he said was taken in her bathroom at her Toluca Lake mansion around 2009.

He claimed a friend of Porter’s took the photo while she applied makeup to cover up an injury from one of Diddy’s alleged attacks.

The photo background matches realtor’s photos of the master bathroom at the mansion, where Porter was later found dead in 2018.

In 2020 Todd published a book on OJ Simpson titled Ron’s Revenge, putting forward a theory that OJ killed his wife and her friend Ron Goldman with an accomplice. 

It is not the first time Combs has been accused of being a sexual predator or violent.

The music mogul was sued by an anonymous woman last year who claimed Combs and two friends took turns violently raping her when she was 17, after plying her with drugs and alcohol.

Hers is one of 11 civil complaints filed against him since 2023.

The woman’s suit followed a legal complaint by R&B singer Cassie Ventura, who said Combs subjected her to savage beatings, drug-fueled hotel orgies, and rape.

Cassie settled with him the day after her lawsuit became public in November.

Rodney Jones, a music producer who worked with Combs, claimed in a lawsuit that he was made to ‘solicit sex workers and perform sex acts to the pleasure of Mr Combs’ in 2022 and 2023.

He said underage girls were present at these sex parties at Combs’s LA, Miami, and New York homes, as well as on a rented yacht in the US Virgin Islands.

Porter allegedly wrote that she and Diddy had an ‘open relationship’ and that she regularly slept with legendary late rapper Tupac Shakur

Porter claimed she discovered video tapes of Combs’s sexual encounters in his bedroom ‘vault’, and made copies of them as protection for herself, as part of her plan to leave him

R&B singer Cassie Ventura said Combs subjected her to savage beatings, drug-fueled hotel orgies, and rape.

Combs ‘threatened to eat Mr. Jones’s face’, according to his lawsuit, and even drugged him before sexual encounters.

Combs’s attorney Shawn Holley said at the time: ‘We have overwhelming, indisputable proof that his claims are complete lies.’

The music mogul is currently locked up in the Metropolitan Detention Center in Brooklyn after pleading not guilty to  federal charges of racketeering, sex trafficking, and a prostitution-related crime on Tuesday.

He was arrested early Tuesday at the Park Hyatt hotel in Manhattan.

The New York grand jury indictment, filed on September 12 and unsealed on Tuesday, said Combs ‘abused, threatened, and coerced women and others around him to fulfill his sexual desires, protect his reputation, and conceal his conduct’.

It accused him of ‘creating a criminal enterprise whose members and associates engaged in, and attempted to engage in, among other crimes, sex trafficking, forced labor, kidnapping, arson, bribery, and obstruction of justice’.

It said he forced women into ‘freak offs’ – drug-fueled, days-long orgies with male sex workers that Combs recorded.

He allegedly arranged and directed the sex parties, while masturbating throughout the performance and supplied women drugs such as ecstasy, ketamine, and BHB to keep them energized, federal prosecutors said.

The document added: ‘After freak offs, Combs and the victims typically received IV fluids to recover from the physical exertion and drug use’. 

Prosecutors said that the music mogul’s employees covertly booked hotel rooms for the ‘freak offs’, while stocking them with baby oil, lubricant, and extra bed sheets.

Authorities allegedly discovered over 1,000 bottles of baby oil and lubricant in his homes while searching them earlier this year.

Agents also uncovered three AR-15 rifles with defaced serial numbers in his Miami bedroom closet, but the weapons has been ‘broken down into parts, along with magazines with ammunition loaded in them’.

His attorney, Marc Agnifilo, called it an ‘unjust prosecution’, adding in a statement on Monday: ‘He is an imperfect person, but he is not a criminal.’

Agnifilo did not respond to DailyMail.com’s request for comment.